Groping in the dark for my new normal

I love reading about my personality type when I'm feeling dreary about myself. I am an ENFP through and through. That's a person who is Extroverted iNtuitive Feeling and Perceiving. This is what the Personality Pages tell about people like me "ENFPs are warm, enthusiastic people, typically very bright and full of potential. They live in the world of possibilities, and can become very passionate and excited about things. Their enthusiasm lends them the ability to inspire and motivate others, more so than we see in other types. They can talk their way in or out of anything. They love life, seeing it as a special gift, and strive to make the most out of it."

When I'm thriving, this is completely true. I am so passionate, I feel like I could burst most of the time. But right now, I'm living in a weird sort of limbo. I moved six months ago, after four months of living by myself in Frederick during an extremely stressful time. Since January I have taken on average two out-of-town trips a month. I have entertained visitors here and spent time in Pittsburgh, Frederick, and Michigan. It usually takes me two days to prepare for a trip and three days to recover. This has left me very little time and energy to find my "normal." Once I think I've found it, I've jetted off again.

Since our daughter is set to arrive in the next few weeks, I have not endeavored to get a job or start any new projects. Instead, I have old projects that need to be finished, preferably before she gets here. The largest and most unpleasant is my master's thesis. No, it isn't done yet; and no, it isn't going well. Also, I have a few loose ends to tie up in the studio. One will be another road trip out to eastern PA to pick up a gigantic statue of St. Joseph and drop off a small sculpture to have cast in bronze. I have yet to finish said sculpture, which I started a year-and-a-half ago and which has been 90% finished for the past year.

Being an ENFP visionary is great unless you have several unfinished projects hanging over you. "An ENFP needs to focus on following through with their projects. This can be a problem area for some of these individuals. Unlike other Extroverted types, ENFPs need time alone to center themselves, and make sure they are moving in a direction which is in sync with their values. ENFPs who remain centered will usually be quite successful at their endeavors. Others may fall into the habit of dropping a project when they become excited about a new possibility, and thus they never achieve the great accomplishments which they are capable of achieving. "

Being an ENFP is complex because we need to be around people to get energy and we need time alone for centering. Since we moved, I have had a little too much of the later and not enough of the former, so I feel a bit like a slug oozing around a center not getting a damned thing done.

When I move to a new place my natural instinct is to jump in, join clubs, sit on a committee, get out there and meet people. Yet, this time I have tasks that need to be done and I need to do them alone. I cannot join a club only to disappear once Srushti comes. But this has left me incredibly lonely and without any energy. So, I'm in a bit of a limbo here, groping in the dark for my new normal.